Saturday 25 October 2014

Lovely words from AA Milne


Dear Ella,

I have come across lots of words in your room written by AA Milne - all of them sent to you by the very lovely Amy.

At this very poignant time of the year Carpe Diem these ones seem to be very appropriate.

Lots of love
Mum
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AA Milne - Winnie The Pooh


Thursday 23 October 2014

Stuff

Dear Ella,

I have been very quiet and stepped off the hamster wheel called day to day normal living for a short while.  A very small taste of what life was like for you when you had to step off for a huge amount of time - and well then for good of course.

Of course the wheel just keeps turning, we are all just such tiny cogs in a very big machine.  Lots of time to navel gaze - never good really, but means my brain is more settled and not in flitter mode from one subject to another.  Despite having more time - have been at a loss as to what to write to you, then I remembered maybe you just want to hear about banal stuff - like I reel off to Sophie when we have our weekly calls so here goes!

Well new windows all round the house, exciting stuff huh.  Add it the list of middle aged things to get sorted  - like  pensions and pelvic floors and you know your really cooking on gas!

Brian is now as big as Fizz, still not a lap cat,  Thankfully she has stopped bringing in frogs and spends most of her indoor time curled up on your bed.

Had a lovely time in Sardinia for a week - no longer a beach bum, more of a walker, wanderer and sitting in cafes and bars watching the world go by tourist.

Oh - very exciting news - off for a weeks holiday to NY next May with the stalwarts - Lorraine, Shelagh, Marion and Gaynor's coming too.  Of course I am thinking we will be like the Sex and the City crew, in reality we will be more like Sister Act on speed- stomping, eating and drinking our way around town (not quite the Golden Girls - yet).   Promise I will got to MOMA for you - know it was on your list.

Can feel Christmas lurking at the end of year - still dislike myself for having taking the festive season for granted in happier times - it really is a tricky time of the year.

Sophie seems very happy and busy in Cardiff - think we now enjoy our time living apart.  There will be that period of adjustment in December as we endeavour to fit back together in some weird shape.  A slightly spiky one that becomes less spiky after a while and then spikes up again.  I wonder how we would have been once you had flown the nest.

Grandad continues to keep me and the Uncles busy and entertained - we have acquired a new gadget for him so that he can hear us better.  He looks like an elderly DJ about to work the crowd,  (the most visible part is a huge pair of headphones),  now there's a thought!

Have swapped Summer for Winter wardrobe - another middle aged trait, am sure other than a coat I only had one wardrobe when I was younger.  Have not reunited my body with winter coat in Michael Mcintyre style as of yet - but think it wont be long.  Likewise your log burner is standing empty and unlit since March.

On the note of the log burner - you did a great job with our lounge, it really is a very lovely room - your swan song in terms of design.  Thank you, its peaceful, cozy, stylish and comfortable.

There you have it…….

Lots of love

Mum
XXX








Sunday 12 October 2014

I've said it before….

Dear Ella

I've said it before and I am going to have to say it once more - at the risk of being very boring. "I am learning to love holidays again - but coming home is startlingly shocking and sad - you really have gone".

Will just have to keep walking - putting one foot in front of the other

Lots of love

Mum
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Saturday 4 October 2014

George!

Dear Ella

A first for me today - will be purchasing hello magazine  to ogle over pictures of George Clooney and his wedding last weekend in Venice.  Wow - massive sigh and eye roll from you!   However, I do know you would have loved looking at the dresses and talking about your wedding dreams one day in the future, what a beautiful bride you would have been.

Lots of love

Mum
xxx

Wednesday 1 October 2014

Just minding my own business

Dear Ella,

There I was - just minding my own business in Sainsbury's on my way home from work - and I bumped into you.  That was a shock - you were just by the pomegranates and other odd fruits, you had your back to me, I wasn't looking where I was going - you must have taken a step back and we "bumped",  I never saw your face, but it was your hair, height and stature to a tee.

You took my breath away and I kept looking - couldn't believe what I was seeing - you moved off chatting to a friend - your face still hidden.

I bought the carrots I had gone in for and headed for home - the strange fruits was a good clue - you would never have been checking those out!

Missing you

Lots of love

Mum
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