January compleated

Dear Ella,

I am always glad to see the back of January (as you well know), but this year even gladder.  Its been a long old haul since Christmas and even longer since 21 November - in fact 75 days.  

Is 75 a lot? Yes it is and no it isn't.  It's been busy for sure and that makes time motor along, not in a BMW smooth, purring kind of way, more a bumpy old jalopy way - stuttering and stopping but  some how managing to crank up and move forward each time the "old banger" stops.

Busy in an unspectacular way and also busy doing nothing at times - when I stop still and try so hard to reach out and connect to you, can you feel me?

Wanted to let you know that our "simple things to do list" is still on the fridge and guess what...I ticked one of mine off on Saturday, I went on a creative writing course.  I was so nervous, but it was great, for a few hours I totally lost myself and with guidance and encouragement - just wrote.  The feedback was very gentle and kind.  I walked home with a spring in my step and on the note of Spring - our bulbs in the back garden are well and truly on their way up.

Hope my blabbering on was not too irritating  when I came to see you at the weekend, looking forward to sunny day visits when I can sit with you instead of standing in the mud getting wet and blown all over the place.

Missing you so much

Lots of love
Mum