Dear Ella
Well here we go - 2013 has started.
Have I learnt anything from 2012 - of course the answer is yes!
1. To slow down and take time and not race forward to the next day, week, month year. Today is today and needs to be relished in whatever shape or format.
2. Really, really awful things happen - but somehow they can be navigated and are survivable - but a new shape has to be adapted to, understood and tried for size. This takes time - maybe a lot of time.
3. Friends and family are simply amazing - like a safety net they are there to catch you, hold you and simply to be there. Last night (New Years Eve) was a wonderful example of this - where close friends and one brother spent the evening with me laughing, sharing and enjoying the hours unto midnight and just after. No one was afraid to mention your name and I could feel you watching and laughing at "us olds" as we partied on.
4. "Being there" - is an amazing gift that we can give each other. The act of "being" in what ever shape or format is so simple but so magnificent at the same time. I hope I was "being there" enough for you - and got the balance right to give you space and time with others as well.
Enough looking back, tomorrows post will be about moving forward and making sure I take your spirit with me in everything I do.
Lots of love
Mum
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Love it! You have a remarkable skill with being able to write difficult things with clarity, honesty and sensitivity. So glad the New Year started with sunshine ... may it long continue. xxx Aza
ReplyDeleteYou have a powerful, deep way with words. It was my New Year's gift seeing you yesterday. You inspire and guide me. Lots of love xx Giulia
ReplyDeleteBeautiful words for a beautiful girl which shows the strength if your relationship & love for each other, Ella must have got her positivity & courage from you & will now help guide you forward to keep going & all who knew & loved her will help support the teenage centre thank you for sharing your love
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