Thursday 27 November 2014

Add a shopping trolley

Dear Ella,

Parked nicely next to the microwave - I now have an ASDA shopping trolly as well!

Show me where it says "drop your rubbish off here"?

What a week.

Lots of love

Mum
XX

Tuesday 25 November 2014

A message and a microwave

Dear Ella,

So, pushed on through the two year mark, distracted and absorbed by dragging myself up and down mountains behind U Bob and others.  As ever, wide open spaces, lung busting scrambles, spectacular views, easy company and aching legs (and other bits) helped some what.

Back to the more familiar, urban routine ascent of Park Street today - but home via dinner and drinks with girlfriends.   The rain was pouring down as we said goodnight and headed for our homes.  Crossing the river - the bells from St Mary Redcliffe were ringing loud and clear.  "Yes, yes Mum - I can hear you.   I've got the message, you think we are all doing OK, room for improvement (there always will be), but overall not too bad".   "Lovely to hear from you"!

Dodging puddles, getting wetter and wetter (mountain waterproofs would have been handy) - my pace quickened towards home - only to be greeted by a dumped microwave on the pavement outside my house.  Another (1st world)  problem to sort tomorrow.  Who the hell left that there!

Onwards……as ever.

Lots of love

Mum
XXX






Friday 21 November 2014

Forever

Dear Ella

Two years - a lot of time and no time at all.

Can still hear and feel you everywhere - thank goodness!

Love you more than you will ever know (I said the same thing to Sophie on text this morning).

Lots of love

Mum
xxx

Wednesday 19 November 2014

Nonsense

Dear Ella

This time two years ago - as I helped you upstairs to bed (it took a while), you said "Mum, I am so ill", "nonsense" I replied - "you will feel better tomorrow when you start the steroids".

Nonsense  indeed!  - you were so ill, we argued for a bit over the rights and wrongs of which medications to take, I was irritable, you were ill, we were both exhausted.  "Don't be cross Mum", "I'm not, I just wish you hadn't taken that particular medication.  Sleep tight, love you loads and see you in the morning."

I tucked you in, switched off your light and left you to sleep. You sort of woke up the next morning, but not really.  You were on your way.

If I had really realised - I would never have been cross with you and never left you - sorry.

Lots of love

Mum
XX




Tuesday 18 November 2014

Remember

Dear Ella

"If you can remember me, I will be with you always."

Lots of love

Mum
XXX

Tuesday 11 November 2014

Coat on!

Dear Ella,

Finally put my winter coat on this morning - its first outing this year.  Wasn't overly cold - but it was nice to be dry when I reached work.  It's November - so of course its raining, pouring down just like in 2012.

Even tried your log burner out last Sunday - very cosy.

Anyway - found this on FB tonight - never a truer word spoken, hit the spot for me.


I had a terrible day. We say it all the time. A fight with the boss, the stomach flu, traffic. But when the really terrible things happen, we start begging a god we don’t believe in to bring back the little horrors and take away this. Would it have helped if we could see what else was coming? Would we have known that those were the best moments of our lives?

Lots of love

Mum
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Saturday 1 November 2014

Great Mum

Dear Ella,

…but I often took you both to see Fireworks - on the Downs, in London and most recently your very own Firework party at Allington - it was fun.

Great Mum :)


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Terrible Mum

Dear Ella,

Got the text from Sophie last night "you never took me and Ella "trick and treating" for Halloween".  She learnt the complaint from you!

One of my worst crimes as your Mum apparently.  So for the record here's the story - which you know - but conveniently forget every year in your rush to remind me of what a terrible Mum I was.

So - when you were a little girl - about 5 or 6 - Trick and Treaters used to knock on the front door at Glentworth Road - you were terrified and would run crying into the lounge and hide on the sofa with your "duggie".  It was a stressful few hours.

After a couple of years of this - "enough" - we started a 31 October tradition of going out for an early evening dinner and then onto a movie.  So pizza and ice cream in somewhere like TGI Fridays - followed by "Finding Nemo" or equivalent.  You and Sophie loved it - and I did to.

There you have it - the full explanation for the lack of "trick and treating" when you were little girls.

Sorry!

Lots of love

Mum
XXX