Riding out the storm

Dear Ella,

So you know its about five months on and the days and weeks are passing in one shape, format or another.  I am learning a lot about grieving.  Learning doesn't make it much easier - but it does make it familiar - which can sometimes help.

For instance, I know that sometimes (often when I least expect it) a massive wave of overwhelming sadness comes, and like being on a boat in a storm I just have to hang on tight and ride it out till I reach a calmer place.

I know the calm will come, tentatively at first and will gradually settle back to something manageable and recognisable - and then on I go.

Lots of love

Mum
xx